Kathleen Fenaughty

Under Thunder Mountain, 2015.

        January 5, 2016

A. My Truth/Questions:

The healing system in place for cancer patients is detrimental to health and is not a healing modality. It is defined and sold as a battlefield. With more dead than alive and with those alive being wounded warriors and the rate of cancer growing, then perhaps a new perspective for a more conscious care system will be embraced-

 One without the fear but based on love and freedom instead. One of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness as the Constitution of United States has provided for all Americans.

1. What is War? War is trauma, war is rape, war is death, injury, pain, PTSD, etc, etc, etc…

We employ “Cut, poison and burn” warfare tactics for a warrior mentality and warfare on the body and race’s for the cures and pink-washing industries and GMO’s ( cancer tumor effects linked in laboratory animals and the Agent orange defoliant’s (“non-casually” linked Vietnam veteran out-of-court settlement chemical’s – stories of the people’s disease’s and their children’s genetic deformities then denied as not related even with the children born with major deformities) was flipped into our foods and onto our lawns as safe and effective pesticides and herbicides for us.

2. Who said our children must go to war and be hero’s and why do we believe it?

Why instead of Oxygen we run for the cure and shave head’s and hold our hands in support- if you’re one of the lucky ones who is embraced in their community by obedience to the care system Insurance covered care, jail or the state taking the children from their home.

Why then, if we are in fact warriors at war using war-fare tactics, we fail to consider something like the Geneva Convention- anyone who is a victim of war has rights.

Who are the victims of war? Are the mothers left weeping after their child dies from treatments, victims? 

What are the rights and what are the rights we lose when we choose to go alternative, like MMP?

What if we redefine disease and re-imagine how we deal with it and how we can heal dis-ease with more ease instead of treating the disease in our body as an enemy.

John Hopkins research already states cancer cells are in every body, so are we all diseased?

Why Forgiveness is vital.

B. My 3-part Story:

Believe, Be loved, Beloved, Mama Lilla from Under Thunder Mountain

1. Diagnosis,

2. My Successful Search for Alternatives and My Shift of consciousness and the benefits of MM for me.

3. Return and the difficulties and decline of health until MMP and requested removal by my physicians fear of allowing their cancer patients to meet me and hear my story.

Why was I told I was crazy when I felt the radiation burning my breast?

Why was I ridiculed when I chose an alternative healing path?

Why, when I return healed am I hidden?

Why are so many dead and damaged?

C. My Belief

Our consciousness drives the Force and we can change the things we put in place, the structures we built when we expand our understanding and when we can wrap our brains around the new materials.

The narrative’s of our stories are vital. They are the voices of us united, they are the voices of so many silenced over so many years. But now the technology has opened up the portal of the collective voices. The voices of the suffering and those damaged by the cancer system of care have spoken and our voices have united.

For the dead, for the dying, for the suffering, for the survivors and for those who witnessed the death of their loved ones as they held their hands while chemo poisons streamed through their veins and into the hearts and livers and organs until everything inside of the body died and took them with them, and for the sake of all the suffering through the system of care, how many more years must this war continue?

 Yes, there are survivors of this war. I am a survivor from 2007 and I believe I am here because I refused the system of care. How many diagnosed and treated in 2007 are still here and what is their quality of health?

I chose a different path- a path less traveled by and, like Robert Frost said, that has made all the difference for me. I hope you can choose because Choice Matters, You Matter and we matter, All of Us together can make a difference and be restored by the sunshine of freedom and we can heal and be as if we were born again with ease.

I Believe Freedom can win over fear- War-based metaphoric approach to disease and cancer specifically forces our own children to become warriors and fear-bullying tactics for the elderly and their family members to force the “standard of care” agenda.

 We know history is written and recorded by the victors of war. I am victorious, right?

I Believe our Voices Matter, Medical Humanities and the narrative of so many voices silenced over these past 50 years- our collective narratives- our collective stories can shift our consciousness collectively and the technology of today gives voice to the people.

I Believe the patient/human comes first- and we hold the keys to harness the good of our medicines and also recognize what isn’t working and be willing to make the changes necessary to achieve the desired results.

Are we so indebted to the machines we build, that we close our eyes and shut our ears to the suffering voices? Why do we choose to believe we can stabilize a non-stable force such as radiation when the innovator herself- Madame Curie died from radiation poisoning and with radiation leaks and power plants melting, well, why?

I Believe Compassionate care means no more chemicals. I Believe in the power of plant-based medicine.

I Believe in the power of the people to make changes, to examine, to forgive, to explore and to re-create. No more bullies in school means no more bullies in medicine.

A crowd can not be silenced as permanently as the voice of one person.

I believe in you.

I believe in us.

Believe, beloved, beloved blessing from Under Thunder Mountain.

Kat's Alternative Healing Tool-Kit

Kathleen Fenaughty, 2105. Under Thunder Mountain.

Course Material Developed by Kathleen Fenaughty, 2015 to be used in teaching my workshop and course series.

                                             THE ESSENTIAL FOUR:

1. AIR- SPIRIT- OXYGEN-BREATH*

 Deep pranayama practice, sunlight and oxygen-rich supplements.

2. EARTH- MATTER-BODY-BALANCE -GROUNDING*

FOOD: Clean Food.

Common GMO Offenders: causes instant and gradual digestive, assimilation and elimination issues.

Avoid all white sugars, white flours and white pastas.

Try removing gluten; go gluten free gradually with wise choices.

            Organic- Chose local when possible- pesticide and herbicide free farmers only. (These local farmers may not be certified USDA (Food and Drugs- go figure, right?) but if they do not use chemicals, it’s good for you to get local soil organisms through locally produced food. It’s good for your inner body.)

3. WATER: SOUL-E-MOTION ENERGY*

Clean, non-tap Ph. Balanced/Alkaline water preferred. Distilled. Purified water systems help.

4). FIRE: SPIRIT*

 Yoga, dance-play and integrate. Exercise with the energy of love, joy and play. Make it fun and laugh.

5). SPACE: COMMUNITY, GLOBAL, COSMOS INTERACTIONS

Kathleen Fenaughty, 2015. Under Thunder Mountain.

Food Lists, Kathleen Fenaughty, Under Thunder Mountain, 2105.

Power Super-foods for you to choose: Organic- BPA free cans

1. Seeds: Omega 3 Fatty Acid Goodness

a). Chia

b). Hemp (per serving contains more iron than beef)

c). Flax

            2. Nuts/oils: Nut butter fibers

                        a). Almonds & Almond butter

                        b). Sunflower seeds & the butter

c). Walnuts & walnut butter

3. Greens: Promotes Alkaline Cancer fighter

a). Kale/ Swiss Chard/Turnip & Mustard

b). Avocado/ Celery- reduces inflammation

c). Romaine lettuce/Chlorophyll/ Green Beans

4. Roots:

a). Ginger-root

b). Tumeric- ( curcuminoids with potent anti-cancer & powerful anti-inflammatory )

c). Garlic

5. Fruits & Berries: Mind/body foods

a). Apples & lemons

b). Berries

c). Dried Figs (libido support)

6). Veggies: Antioxidant Cancer fighting Alkaline Immune Boosters

a). Carrots

b). Broccoli

c). Green beans

7). Oils: Antimicrobial and Omega 3 powerhouses

a). Coconut-microbial and liver assistance for energy

b). Flax

c). Hemp

Kathleen Fenaughty, 2105, Under Thunder Mountain.

                        8). Grains and Grass

                                    a). Quinoa

                                    b). Oats

                                    c). Wild Rice (filled with antioxidants by nature)

                        9). Squash Cancer fighting Carbohydrates

                                    a). Sweet Potatoes

                                    b). Pumpkins

                                    c). Butternut squash

                       

10). Deserts

a). Organic cocoa or caco powder

b). Coconut chips

c). Organic only Keifer and/or Yogurt for pro-biotic support

   Dirty Dozen- ORGANIC ONLY

1. Apples                                             7. Cherry Tomato       

2. Peaches                                           8. Celery

            3. Nectarines                                       9. Spinach

            4. Strawberries                                    10. Cucumber

            5. Grapes                                             11. Snap Peas

            6.  Sweet Bell Pepper                          12. Potatoes

                        Clean Fifteen- Least likely to contain Pesticides 

            1. Avocado                 6. Onion                      11. Eggplant

            2. Sweet Corn             7. Asparagus               12. Grapefruit

            3. Pineapple                 8. Mango                     13. Canteloupe

            4. Cabbage                  9. Papaya                     14. Cauliflower

            5. Frozen Sweet Peas  10. Kiwi                      15. Sweet Potato

Kathleen Fenaughty, 2015. Under Thunder Mountain.

The BIG D-Diseases and Difference

The BIG D- Diseases and Difference

I always preferred companionship over isolation. However, the solitude and social stigmatizations attached to diseases and the individual’s living with them never ceases to amaze me. Diseases make us different and difference is difficult to embrace. Through-out time we destroy difference. My question is, “Why? Why is different so scary for us?”

 Most of my cancer journey I chose to hide. I was a criminal, violating the laws of the Nation. I had no medical or Naturopathic supervision. The few friends of came around in the beginning, when I was a beginning Survivor, but that dwindled over the years. It takes time to survive cancer and more time to live with and manage cancer, and..., with gratitude my story continues on.

I selected some pretty unusual treatments for my cancer back then in 2007, including oxygen, enzymes and marijuana. I used all my savings up until I had nothing left but my life and my car. Whenever I could I told people my story. From Washington to Connecticut, from Florida to Arizona I shared what I was doing. I was told I would die, I was told I was crazy, I was shunned and shamed for ten years.

Now I am able to receive a $200.00 month Food Stamp allotment and the State’s support for the unending dental repairs from radiation damage. I knew I was one of the lucky ones who, through grace, survived the disease and stayed out of prison. Many did not. At any time, I could have easily died or been thrown into prison for violating the federal Schedule 1 drug laws. Being shunned and shamed took secondary place. In place of my emotional and mental healing, was my physical healing, keeping myself alive and out of prison. That was my priority.

 Several decades of Pink-washing profits increase, as more and cancers erupt and this in turn has created an enormous, unstoppable and very hungry industrial/medical beast. Many know the truth but they are not ready to cause any undue alarms in the general population. Besides, we have nothing to replace the system with and the argument stands.

 After ten years of my hiding, the shift towards Alternative healing has opened up some. More and more people who have been hidden away have surfaced. The Medical Marijuana industry is taking shape against the resistance of many. And it is just beginning. State after State opens up to new medical marijuana dispensaries and medical marijuana patient increase increases. A few have already legalized recreational marijuana and the 2016 Presidential election is a pivoting mechanism still awaiting an answer in the Fall election.

In my State, the winners of the Marijuana State licensing lottery spent a non-refundable exorbitant amount just to enter. Only a few could win. What a load of upfront money from the beginning, I thought. Where does this money go? Who is profiting and who is benefitting?

Medical marijuana was an out-of-pocket expense for the patient and the stigma attached to using plant-based medicine furthers the shame of those suffering with diseases who are legally allowed a certain amount every month.

I had no desire to end up in the Federal pen so I registered with the State. I had my medical marijuana photo taken and an identification MMP card provided for me to carry as proof and protection. As long as we obeyed the restrictions for the use of the product we were safe from criminal prosecution. That’s what we all thought.

 Even though it took a year to provide the product to the patient, the State turned its head against the sources of distribution. It took over a year before a legal dispensary was in place. It did not matter where we got marijuana as long as we had a card. As you can imagine, that caused a lot of confusion for everyone involved.

The collective consciousness is shifting. The smart and wealthy people have begun to build the Big business of marijuana. The drug cartel’s have a new enemy. America is legally growing and distributing marijuana. As the industry grows its’ Mom and Pop origins die and its’ Green Emerald Triangle farmers die with it. Big FDA, Food and Drug and Agriculture regulated industries like pharmaceutical and tobacco, the seed/patent ownership is now in place for the future control of marijuana.

When I started purchasing medical marijuana from the local pharmacy/dispensary, barely anyone showed up and everyone was really sick and really uneasy. Camera’s are tucked away in every corner of the building both inside and outside. All the glass is bullet-proof and there are no windows on the building. Inside there are layers of glass and walls which lead into the restricted back rooms. No one is allowed in without a card and extra identification. No marijuana plants are visible. The pharmacist’s wear white robes and all the marijuana is packaged and identified with microchip tracking from the growers. Every product is sealed in containers and presented similar to a pharmaceutical. Only certain diseases are allowed the use of medical marijuana. The list continues to grow as the push for legalization of marijuana for recreational use continues to gain momentum.

Inside the pharmacy, people of all ages suffering with their maladies count the money they are able to scrounge up, from wherever they can just to buy some medicine product. The product is very expensive and not covered by any Insurance. it causes people much hardship in order to obtain it. It is an out-of pocket expanse for the patient and leaves the person in greater financial hardship.

I had no money left by the time medical marijuana became available for me. Like many, I thought of turning to the street just to turn a profit. Many people wanted the product and had the money to give to a person who could legally obtain it. The disease requirements kept expanding and people knew people who had access to purchase the products. They may be suffering and they had some money. What to do?

A pattern we already had seen with corn, wheat and milk, with the GMO’S, pesticides and herbicides. I wondered if legalizing would corrupt the plant, the flower and the healing properties of the plant as it became more and more cloned and processed in mass production. Was there was another way to grow our own marijuana plants and still maintain a marijuana industry? Legal marijuana is a proven, profitable cash business. But, when profits rule something nefarious always seems to happen. Like a demon from the dark, it appears out of nowhere and rises up as a force to be reckoned with. We can feel the rumbles of the thunder before we see the flashes of the light and there is no way to stop the force.  

The moment I chose non-compliance with the traditional, medical Standard of Care treatments for my cancer, everything changed. It was a very risky choice back then.  Now, ten years later, it still very risky, but now it seems more people are willing to take the risk. I wondered if my choice played a role and set into motion a pebble that reverberated energetically so others could choose different because choice matters.

I thought the issue around marijuana would ethically and theologically resolve itself as we became more loving and compassionate with one another. Indeed, it was very risky, very political and very potentially life and liberty threatening then and it still is now.

I lived in a time where the world was divided over the use of marijuana for medical care and marijuana for recreational use. We make wars out of everything we don’t like, we don’t understand and we want to destroy. We went from the war on drugs to drug wars to drugs for warfare to the war on cancer. Until the powers of control, it is uncontrollable.

Ever since I ventured into the alternative world my life changed, my friends changed and fear shadowed. Not knowing who to trust, I pretty much trusted no one. I knew I couldn’t trust the medical doctors, but my friends? Could I trust them? Was it worth the risk to trust anyone? I wanted to keep my faith in people because time and belief created new life.